Caramel and Dark chocolates* left alone

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2009-08-06T21:47:00.004+08:00

Whats the date today?
Its the Sixth of another month, and its a day of every month that we used to remember...
It was special to us.
Yes, it was.

过去怎么安排, 你该给的信赖
我的眼泪却一直掉下来...

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2009-08-03T22:05:00.003+08:00

i wanna die
i wanna bleed
i wanna cry
but all i can do is just keep walking with a smile on my face
and pretend the scars aren't really there

I cry because I know he doesn't feel the way I do.
I cry because I think of how pathetic I am,
and I cry because I think I'll be crying forever........

If this is goodbye, don't come back
if this is the end, don't wake me up.
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.

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2009-08-02T03:04:00.001+08:00

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

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2009-07-30T21:28:00.003+08:00

your reply is in a mess
at this moment in time,
i thought of the past,
the sweetness is scattered.

a mysterious tugging of my emotions
i'm still loving you.
but you continued singing pretending that nothing has happened.
time has passed and left,
love is faced with a choice.
you've become cold and i've cried
the unhappiness we felt when I left,
you just don't break a word
it was all silence.

Sometimes love can only be like this and it's really painful.
what happened,
you're tired, where is the happiness that we agreed on?
i understand and dun wanna say anymore,
love has weakened, our dreams have drifted.

Being happy or not, narrating them one after another, we cant bear it.
Those feelings of loving were way too deep, i can still remember them.
You're not waiting anymore, wheres the happiness that we agreed on?
I was wrong, tears have dried, we've let go, we've regretted.
Only that musical box of memories still continue to turn,

how can it be stopped?

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2009-07-29T23:19:00.001+08:00

what am i hoping for?
I thought i was ok so i laugh happily,
at the end of the day...
i'm not.

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2009-07-28T21:29:00.002+08:00

Every little thing i do, i saw or i thought of... somehow it could relates to you.
I don't know why.
I'm afraid to listen... to songs that relates to you or us.
Its heartbreaking.
I'm afraid to think back... our past memories are just too much to be erased.
Its sweet yet bitter.
The many hopes you had given, they are all broken, too many pieces to be fix back again.
These are tons of disappointment.
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i'm really afraid, really afraid... this is tearing me apart................

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2009-07-26T21:05:00.004+08:00

My dear sis just advice me this: If that someone can't bring you happiness but tons of sorrow, no use hanging on to it. It will only drag your pain... isn't it kind of true?
How much courage i need to have to let go of this... i always just hold on to it, thought that somehow someday it will change to be better. I am wrong. The more i'm holding on to it, my heartache just got even deeper...
I should learn to let go now.
If one day you still holds the status of being my bf, i will still expect at least a little from you, but that little thing that i had expected seems to be too stress or too much for you. When there is no expectations, there will be no disappointment. If that small request i've asked makes you feels being controlled, you are not ready to have me in yr life.
This hurts deeply do you know that?

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2009-07-25T11:53:00.004+08:00

What is freaking wrong with us again...

Your words always hurt, i' m none other but just another friend of yours.

you asked me: "Who are you to control my life my private life??" these words really hurt.......

If such tiny thing i asked makes you feels controlled, are you at all ready for a r/s? You always make me wonder...... how long am i gonna to take all these...

Solar Eclipse 2009

2009-07-21T22:39:00.004+08:00

The solar eclipse that will take place on Wednesday, July 22, 2009 will be a total eclipse of the Sun. It will be the longest total solar eclipse of the 21st century, lasting at most 6 minutes, 39 seconds! It has sparked tourist interest in eastern China and India
China, India and Japan will be seeing its longest total solar eclipse in almost 500 years.
But Singapore will have to wait a little longer to experience the full eclipse. Scientists said Singapore will only experience a partial solar eclipse between 8.40am and 9.40am. I doubt Singapore can see any different. so sad!

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Solar Eclipse of 1999, taken from mid France somewhere.

Don't be superstitious! Tomorrow is yet another ordinary day :)

夏まつり

2009-07-20T20:49:00.005+08:00

People!! Japanese Summer Festival Singapore is here!!

I'm all so excited to attend :D

夏まつり!!!

pls refer to link below:

In Japanese

http://www.jas.org.sg/event/summerFes_ja09.htm

In English

http://www.jas.org.sg/event/summerFes09.htm

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Come come, Join me! =D

:D

2009-07-18T22:24:00.001+08:00

Hana Yori Dango

whooo... this song in korean :D

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2009-07-14T21:34:00.001+08:00

Its not gonna be easy.

Its not gonna be hard.

And were going to have to work at this everyday.

But i want to do that because i want you.

I want all of you, forever, everyday.

^-^

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2009-07-13T20:44:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, fate has a cruel way of putting things together. Maybe it's better if people just give up when there's no point in fighting for something anymore. When the ship has finally sailed, only a fool would go after when it's already miles away. But sometimes, it's a lot better to be a fool to go after what we want and need, rather than to regret everything in the end because we never even tried..

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2009-07-12T18:39:00.000+08:00

Spiteful words can hurt my feelings but silence breaks my heart.

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2009-07-12T18:05:00.003+08:00

"It’s not that I want to let it go. It’s because you didn’t held onto me tight enough."

Saw this in gine's fb shoutout, totally matched what i'm feeling right now...

Yummy puffs!

2009-07-08T20:52:00.002+08:00

Its another working day... i can't wait for Fri!! Meeting my HamHam :D

I hasn't stop eating in office today, oops. Have great colleagues that always never forget me when comes to food sharing. HAHA. Cakes, pastries, chocolates... or anything new and famous! Eat and eat, yum yum :)

Anyway, i'm watching MJ's memorial now! He's had gone too soon... feels so sad esp when his daughter spoke. He is someone that we will remember :)

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Zouk, Phuture & Double O with the girls, last wed :)

Yan Ning!

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The unauthorised access!

2009-07-05T19:49:00.005+08:00

Sat out with Zhiyong and Lilian, actually planned to watch Ice Age 3 but tickets were all sold out over town! We ended up chilling at Starbucks outside ps :) It was great chatting with them cos i was really upset with... for those pple who know. hah. i'm feeling better now!

At least i tried to talk things out with him, yes my hamham. Really hope u could understand and not run away from any probs just cos u didn't wan to feels stress. It will just make someone like me that care for you so much, feeling so miserable.

Will let things go its own way first, if not just face it, whats wrong with that.

Anyway, after starbucks, we went exploring the new mall! =D Central @ Orchard.

It was a pretty big mall of 12 storeys high! (excluding 2 levels basement) imagine that. Every level had its own theme of shopping experience and even had a own name for each level! sounded cool huh, but the building concept just not as fantastic. abit messy and not making use of the entire space.

Nonetheless, the tip level is still quite funnn!! HAHA. It seems like a great place to hang out, maybe next time once its all done. At that level, its like a garden yet... probably will be up with more shops & chilling out spots, hopefully!!

This is the Tall Lady at level one! it is at least a 7 stories high statue! HAHA.

We were all resting comfortably at level one after exploring each and every level! =D

Look at what we are doing! folding planes with those brochures left on these sits! haha. Zy got us a crazy idea of flying the planes from the tip level! and guess what... we did that! WAHAHA! It was almost 12 midnight when we were still at the mall doing all these. LOL.

The elevator in the mall! Seriously, it just reminded me of some similar lifts at changi airport.

Poor Lilian, got her precious-self-painted canvas shoes wet cos of this, trap hole in the dark! LOL.

After the planes, and on the way going back down to the first level... we found something!

HAHAHA!

A LADDER!

It was left my some construction worker. Whats so cool about this ladder rite??

The ladder actually linked us to the rooftop!! OMG. can you imagine we were at the rooftop of at least 12 stories high mall in Orchard!!! It can really got us excited! We could have taken more nice picts if ZY had brought his pro cam along! hah! =D

Some photos taken from that spectacular view. HEHE.

Zy trying not to look down! haha.

We couldn't stay there any longer, suppertime with Cj & thien hoon :)

Dance it!

2009-06-30T22:12:00.003+08:00

ASIA HIP HOP Festival!!

Organize by O school

dance concert at Expo

THE BIG GROOVE!

AWESOME CONCERT!

This event is held once a year as one of the youth event :)

First time attending this and i thought it was just local dance event.... but....!

There are like dance groups from all over asia!

JAPAN, CHINA, HONG KONG, PHILIPINES, INDONESIAN & TAIWAN!!

SO COOL!!

Love the two groups from Japan, Kumin & Wreakling Crew (duno whether did i spell correctly anot) They are just so amazing, esp the all girls group Kumin. They have all the power and they are just girls between 9 to 13 or 15 yrs old only! HOHOHO!

Great that i didn't missed this show but too bad can't really take photos so only can see our faces below only....!

All excited to head down to the show! HAHA!

Looks like we are in some club huh...

The finale! All up to the stage!

Just back to dance ytd, cos i went MIA for a month! oops.

Mornin did a dance tribute to Michael Jackson (MJ)!

Nicely choreograph lyrical hh. loving it!

still can't believe mj is gone just like that, can you? lol. Haven come across anyone that duno abt mj. His great dance moves that inspired so much to Hip Hop bringing it so successfully out to the whole world. I would really wished to watch his tour concert if i still got a chance, thats impossible now. He is gone.

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anyway... whats up tmr?

work...

than...

meeting BABY!!

than...

Club!!

Need to sleep early tonight :)

Tired of tearing.

2009-06-22T21:20:00.003+08:00

I'm on leave today.
Just got to bring my granny for checkup again. hah. Really duno what to say about my granny, sometimes i just couldn't take it, the way she is so paranoid over every little things. Quarrelled with her yesterday.

She've got two medical appts today, Diabetes Centre & Eye Centre.
I had long ago taken leave. I always take leaves two weeks in advance, just to make sure that i'm always available on that particular day just to bring her there. cos no one will really take note the dates and whether the hell did she ever make it there on these appts. NOT ONE APPT BUT MANY. Perhaps, others are just busy with work?? (i'm working too) or busy resting? or busy stressing abt their own things? (like i've ever stop being STRESSed??). HAH! thats it!
Not that my granny is the closest to me now, (ya i know she is like my mama) and that one one else holds that responsibilty to take care of her too?
Cos of some HIGH LEVEL of Neglection my granny is receiving right now, she think that no one else bothers about her!
She starts to have negative thoughts like, not going to her medical appts cos the medical fees always accumulated to a BIG SUM of money, or thinking how she wished to strike 4D and be a Millionaire overnight so that everyone will just swarm towards her and show her some respect! GAWD!!! Seriously... the way she is living right now is just waiting her time to be up. which is can be so saddening to see that. arhhhhh... but there is nothing much i can do, so many things i hoped to help but is out of my ability.
I admit that the life right now for me is so so sooooo much better than living under the hands of my mama demon. Thats really my two yrs of hell life over there! For all who know my sucky situation over the years, i wondered how i did survived through all these dramatic life CRAPS. I may appear to be so strong, no storm can blow me away. But, how long will i ever take it or will i have a better life in the near future is what i feared most. I dun expect to have so good life or luxurious life, all i want is just a very simple life, a home of my own. A home, with papa & mama, granny.... normal life... really just that. I know its impossible now with my papa or mama, so i got to create one myself in future. I need bloody hell loads of ENERGY and that strong will & beliefs. Will I?
Deep down in my heart, really thankful to my Uncle & Aunt who had save me away from that ridiculous home i used to have. Though my granny isn't at her correct frequency lately, least she is eating well and we still have a shelter and warm bed to sleep in. I know out there i have a butch of frens listening and giving me advise whenever i needed. Till, it is the determination i need to carry on with such life.

Sooj's 21st!

2009-06-20T13:43:00.009+08:00

Some photos taken at Fiona's 21st BIRTHDAY!!!! Sooj!!

I have been blogging those back dated events! ARHHH!

Too busy!

Soojing! (Fiona)

Will update more when i got the time! haha, i din even write anything much on this post! lol. hope the picts tells everything! :)

see latest updates in my FB!

Subaru dance ballet

2009-06-08T21:54:00.002+08:00

I wanna watch this show! =D

Adapted from a popular Japanese manga (comic book) of the same title, Dance Subaru! is a motivating tale about the self-realization of a young ballerina under adversity. Subaru tells the story of genius ballerina Subaru Miyamoto with a special emphasis placed on the harsh training she undergoes and the immense social and psychological pressure she experiences. Subaru overcomes these issues to give a performance that leaves her audience crying for more.

SOUNDS GOOD!

ROCKS 21st!

2009-06-07T12:44:00.023+08:00

23 MAY 2009!

Finally i'm free to updates my BIRTHDAY picts!!! =D

This is my first Birthday Party cannnn! HAHAHA. I'm so excited about the whole thing!

Thanks so much for my Uncle and Sis for being my BIGGEST sponsorship for the chalet! They booked the chalet for me at NSRCC, Safra Changi for 3 days 2 nights! As you know that this chalet isn't cheap at all! Thats my birthday presents from them :) (THAT WAS WHAT I THOUGHT INITIALLY!)

BUT!

On that day itself, my Uncle's wife (my ah yi) gave me a diamond necklace! OMG!!! That will cost a bomb mann! *SUPER TOUCHED* =D not only that... my sis still gave me a bouquet of Roses and a very Kawaii Birthday Card!! I'm really so surprised and can really feel the loves i've got from them :) hehe.

The preparations for the party seems to be so messy and really must blame myself for not planning wisely! It was so rush when collecting my cakes and stuffs to decorating of my chalet. Thank god that my uncle is here to drive me ard to do my stuffs and also my dearest frens who were all so early for my party to help out! VERY VERY HAPPY to have u guys! (my gorgeous babes, morning&bingz, steph, mich & maxine) and also my love Hamham being there too... MUACKz!!

*My Japanese* PARTY!

This is my most impt person of my life, the greatest Granny of all!

If it wasn't her, there will not be such a SENSIBLE & OBEDIENT chick like me! HAHAHA!

Seriously, my life for us for the past two years were like hell!! but we still managed to survive through (although we are still quarrelling at times) , we just depended so much on each other :)

Whats wrong with no papa& mama to guide me through life? I'm still here standing firmly, cos i know that i've still got so many loves one. My relatives & frens & mylove :)

HEHEH! Thats my Uncle & Ah yi!

and my two beloved cousins :)

thats my sis!

and her family!

My closest clicks = The GORGEOUS BABES! ^-^

Xueling! My bestie since sec 1! Imagine how many years of friendship!

Thanks so much for being such a GOOD ADVISER! I always feels so much better whenever i tell you my problems or when i need a listening ear!

Carmen! We only got closer after graduated from sec sch. Thanks for always all those encouraging messages! No matter what situation you are at now, you will get over it soon soon soon! Its all the matter of TIME! I've been through so can you! =D

Lilian! My BEST shopping kaki since we ever know each other! hahaha! We do share our problems to each other too and thanks for being a great listener!

Debbie! The hottest chick in my click! WE just don't have the chance to share much about whats happening my our life! but.... just love that crazy crazy laughter of yours! =D We should meet up more before you are heading off to Aussie!

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Thats one missing babe here! FIONA TEO!

this girl go bangkok and miss my party!!! arhhhh... LOL.

We lived so near to each other not until i moved away!

Miss Popiah! =D

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Hamham my love! We had been through so much baby!

Maybe cos of our similar family background, you can really understand how i feels towads my that bad family probs... LOVE YOU.

Gine! I Missed that crazy laughing during work! and our emo talks outside office! OMG! We can always laugh non-stop can! HAHAHA!

My sec sch frens now my clubbing frens!lol.

Sofie & Ezann cutie! :)

Evelyn!

My chubby colleagues!

Steph, Mich & Maxine!

Mornin & Bingz!

Danz People!

Mr Good Mornin! :)

Helping me through the decor!

Mich love!

Hamham love!

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They looks like bodyguards! HAHAHA!

My cousin! Thanks for being early there to help out in the BBQ!

Maxine love!

The chubbies! =D

My cousin! Jovelle! She is damn cute!

Hosoi Sho! hehe. my very naughty nephew!

My HELLO KITTY cake!

Kawaii desu ne! HEE! ^^

My Birthday wishes! Pasted all over the Mirror! haha.

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The clubbing at Zouk & Phuture after my party! =D

It was so damn crowded!

We started out at Zouk but it was all trans music that nite! GAWD!! We hate that! haha than switched to Phuture instead! We club till closed!

Xiang & Melvin didn't make it to my party but still able to come clubbing with us! :)

This 2 was so high that night!! LOL! Dancing all the way till the club close! HAHA. I was so drained out after my party and didn't dance as much. heh.

The clubbing nite, though there was some delayed here and there but still turned out all FUNN!!! hahaha! We had pratas after the club :) The in between before getting the food was so... dramatic!! lols! Don't know whats wrong that day! So many things happened! lazy to explain it all here...

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My presents!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Most of my pressies are from my wishlist! YEA!

The Fujitsu camera! NICE RIGHT??? I just love it la! =D

from my chubby collegues!

Plus a BIG BIG card! love love*

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CHECHE BAG!

OMG!

I wanted a bag from cheche for so long! but its too ex... so i added in my wishlist and i got it now! HAHAHA!

Aren't it looks gorgeous!

and blah blah blah.. the rest of my gifts!

I FEELS SO BLESSED! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!

*HUGS & KISSES*

LOVES

My own time

2009-06-02T22:26:00.004+08:00

Didn't feels like doing anything the moment when i reached home.
Did some overtime before heading home, was real busy at WORK. I should get a pay raise, seriously.
It was yesterday that I was still thinking how to continue my studies to pursue at least a degree :) Got some advise my my aunt and i should really starts to look out for some low interest rates study loans. Anyone to recommend which bank?
I know my sis is gonna over reacte at my getting a-loan-idea. She thought i'm insane! But HELLO SIS, i just can't save!! HAHAHA. You should know better than me! I haven seen u grow RICH with your own savings leh. hee. I was thinking if i'm gonna save with the most 200bucks per month, how i'm i gonna reach that target of at least a 25k? Like i will take TEN FREAKING YEARS to save that???? WOW. Thats so crazy. Biggest AIM NOW: To starts my bachelor next year! =D

Anyway, supposed to upload my party's picts but was too lazy. So went browsing other pple's blog instead, just love reading Xiaxue and Peggy's blog :)

The links:
www.xiaxue.blogspot.com &
www.peggychang.wordpress.com

Xiaxue just changed her blogskin! Its nice. and as usual Peggy is just so good in expressing her thoughts in words.

and I was playing Restaurant City in FB! *WAHAHAHA* :)

Haven't been using com this way for a LONG time!! thanks KC for lending his lappy to me :)

Need to turn in sooooon, if not i will look 10 yrs older tomorrow. HAHA!

Xueling's 21st!

2009-05-28T21:21:00.009+08:00

XUELING'S 21st!
*10th May*

Theme of the day: COLOURFUL

Happy Birthday Babe! Sorry for the late post!

We were there early to help out! Soojing, Steph and me met up early ard 2plus and managed to get there at 3plus.

BUT!

This Xueling, the main cast is not even there yet when we had reached! LOL. Still ask us to come early and not be late, in the end you are the one who is late leh!

HAHAHA!
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SEE XUELING, we are all working hard for you!

Thats our art piece for ya! We had a hard time colouring this with Xueling's Primary school crayons! HAHAH! =D

Lilian and me!

Carmen! The DJ of the day :)

WE were all busy putting up the decorations!

Jesscan, the stylist of the day! haha.
Gorgeous la Xueling... LOVE ya curls that nite! :)

Looks so pro right, haha... like wedding!!

Outramians!

While we were all playing games!

We are like damn high!

I still rmb that Mr Bean's move, so FUNNY can! LOL.

writing the guest book!

Lilian & Xueling!

Xueling & Debbie!

The penguins pple!

Preparing to cut cake le!
Waiting for the birthday girl to get ready! :)

I can't rmb what brand is this cake alr, heard that its famous!

Anyway, its really yummy!

Is it call jane's cake? hahaha.

Xueling's family!

Ok! THIS IS REALLY CUTE!

We took Xueling's polaroid away SECRETLY just to take a pict can!

Cos she was complaining how ex is the film... blah blah blah. hehe.

and we took this without her and paste it on the guestbook!

wahahaha!

SURPRISED for ya!

Take a closer look!

The background was the kitchen!

The BABES :)

Did you enjoy ya party huh xueling???

I hope you did! You were so nervous and worry about everything but its still turn out well! :)

GSS is here and you can go do some crazy shopping using that BIG angbaos! YEA!

LOVES~

Sneak shots!

2009-05-27T22:07:00.003+08:00

Little Preview for my BIRTHDAY! =D

update soon soon soon!! :)

Monday no Bluez!

2009-05-26T21:48:00.003+08:00

I had a great lalala~ PARTY over the weekends!

I will updates with all the photos soon!!! ^-^

THANKS for all the well wishes and lovely gifts!

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First few picts uploaded using my NEW CAMERA!! =D

(One of my birthday gift la. HEE)

Ytd after dance class!

SPOT my NIKE SNEAKER?? One of my wishlist gift hor!
Love it too la. hahaha.

They are supposingly to be quarrelling... HAHAHA.

Pls COOL DOWN. lol!

Lilian!

Mich!

Maxine and me wore similar dance outfit ytd! Mo Qi Shi Zu!

LOL. =D

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Oh no, i've got so many things to update. Gonna do it one by one, haven update Xueling's Birthday picts too.. and of cos MINE as well!

and Soojing's 21st this coming Sat! This month i'm like having party every week! haha.

Will flood more photos SOON!

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Lilian's 21st!

2009-05-16T10:36:00.016+08:00

Lilian's 21st at Timbre Substation! =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Met up one day before her exact Birthday! :)

We were all there first and the guys all came late cos of NS!
We girls bought Diesel's Sneakers and Anna Sui Perfume for Lilian! Hope you will love it!
Creative Birthday card rite? Wrote our wishes on the shoes box cover! haha.

Thats the sneaker!
The live band at Timbre only after 10pm!

We left abit early and got no chance to wait for the singer to sing the song we had delicated for Lilian!

Benjamin! lol. I don't know why he kept saying i know him for 11years?

My primary school friend! :)

I love these Mini burgers! Damn cute la!

HAHA!

Xueling & Lilian!

Carmen & Soojing!

The flowers we bought! Its Purple colour lilian! hoho!

Soojing & ME!

We were all playing games and doing forfeit! lol. This Ben always trying to made all those disgusting forfeit for us using the left over foods!

Thats all! Really got no time to blog. So little words!

Going out soon meeting Xueling & Lilian for my Party's barangs! :)

Curl curly curl~

2009-05-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

Just did my hair ytd! I love my hair colour :) Can't see the real colour inside this pict.

Thanks gary! (He's the one who cut my hair) :)

Did i permed my hair? hee.

I know i looked so MATURED! but sometime i just wanna curl my hair cos seeing straight hair for a period of time will make me sick. lol.

Mama = ah ma.

2009-05-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MAMA DAY!!!

MUACKS

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Wo De Ke Ai Ah MA =D

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It was a BUSY weekends! Lilian's 21st on last fri than followed by Xueling's 21st Ytd!!

Partying~ and mine is coming real soon.

Will blog again... wanna go sleep alr! Just come back from dance, super tired!

The chippy

2009-05-03T16:55:00.003+08:00

Ytd met up with Alvin after so long!! hah. I'm supposed to go club with him on thurs but couldn't make it arh, so met up ytd :) We are always like so busy to meet up or either i'm not free to meet when he ask me out. lol. Was happy for him cos he was able to go in the police line instead of the very shiong Navy for his 2 yrs NS life. so lucky for ya!

I think you should always go for such haircut la, looks nice! :)

Ok, you are super beng in here. haha.

Anyway, hope you faster jio that gal you mentioned! jiayou!

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Just change my blusher to pink instead of orange! I think i really do look brighter now compared to when i'm using orange, look so dull.

Signal of shopping.

2009-05-02T11:12:00.003+08:00

Darling & me went to catch the movie Friday the 13 on thurs! Met him after his sch :) The show was not that fantastic cos we were expecting to be good as it was the same director for the movie series Saw. Wanted to watch 252 the signal of life but no much time slot alr! sad.

He gonna work on PH again, poor thing.....

What to do, self-earn for self study is gonna be this way, no life.

Love you.

Thats my hamham. haha.

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I was out with Xueling ytd and was planning to shop for our wishlist and wat to wear for our birthday:) I've got wat i should wear for mine but it wasn't easy to find wat to wear for her!! lol. Her theme for her big big day is... COLOURFUL!! hehe. Can't wait for your party, girl! =D We almost shopped the whole of orchard but to no avail. But at the later part when we were just trying our luck at wisma and at the same time feeling demoralised, as the shops were all closing, she found... something... like finally!!! lol. HAHAHA. She found a really nice dress that suits the theme too. I love that dress la but so ex, but since she is wearing for her birthday so that the amount of money was worth it! :) so glad that she is able to find the dress in the end cos she looked so sad la. haha. I was feeling so Kancheong for her too, birthday just next sun but haven finish planning everything. aiyo. Xueling, you better use your this one week wisely! and let me know if you need help :) Next weekend i've got two Best buddies Birthday celebration! feels so excited! Lilian & Xueling! Gathering and parties are all the fun!! ^-^

I look fat in here.

My mouth is big, hahaha.

I love this dress at Miss Selfridge! but no more my size. I'm trying on Extra small which is so tight! arhhhh.... the picts looks ok but its like wrapping some rice dumpling on top. LOL!

No luck shopping ytd, actually found another nice dress too and was really cheap also, and it was the last piece with a hole! damn!

What should i be doing today?? Need to plan! :)

the bad weather

2009-04-27T19:10:00.003+08:00

I just can't believe my weekends were gone just dealing with that bloody fever & flu. Intially, i had planned to do all the party buyings with Xueling on Sat, but i was so sicked!! Sorry xl can't go with you, we were so excited about it la. Anyway, must tell me hows your Aliwal's trip and that costume shop hor! :)
Ok, just let me get back to last week.....
Working working working and what else! lol. It was almost the end of the mth and i could not risked myself to spending more, weekends just work. ya and that just last for one week only. HEE... How can i just buried myself i into work only? Thats will be so boring and no life mann. Anyway, friday brought my ah ma to her regular checkup at sgh. I think everything seems pretty fine for her! =D
and finally... i'm meeting up with my baby! ^-^ met him for dinner after sending my ah ma home. That few hours weekly with him is short but sweet :)
I was already not feeling gd on fri itself and it got worse on sat. I thought it was just flu that was making me so tired... not until i went to the doctor. Fever, flu, sore throat, headache... name whatever you can think of and its just gotten one shot into me. GAWD. Thats bad ok, and seeing the doctor alone is making it worse. Almost faint under the HOT SUN walking home after consultation. Not kidding, i was hungry plus fever plus too hot the sun is enough to make my head spin! Baby is working and ah ma can't walked too much so i'm alone struggling home. LOL. but thank gooddness, my cousin (kor) was just ard the corner and saw me sitting on the floor :) haha. He thought who could had bullied me and why i was sitting there alone crying. I need to sit down to prevent myself from fainting. hee. anyway, i'm fine now! but still not fit enough to go dance :(
Claudia just updated that i could have missed so much dance steps for the open hse. I need to catch up!!

I want Ice-cream phone.

2009-04-19T11:49:00.004+08:00

I just feels like going back to study so much!! but with my pathtic pay i can never save :(

Pple have been telling me to get bank loan as they think its good to get back to sch. This is greatly in my consideration, but i've got to change a new job first! My study plans shall put it to next yr, got to be one step at a time huh. Any good pay jobs ard pls intro!! (i know its hard with this bad economy).

Nonetheless, i can't rush everything.

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Went to my sis's hse on thurs to passed her that $100 worth of Lion's goodies (shampoo, washing detergent, toothbrushes, blah blah blah...) =D hahaha. She WON it like last year.... and than till now i'm finally willing to deliver to her! lol. cos i always thought it was freaking heavy eversince i helped her to collect the gifts. (Lion was just beside my Co).

Anyway, my next main thing to be there was to check out what i need to prepare for my party :) Thanks to ステファニー that i know where to get my things in budget =D hahaha. I had dinner with my jiefu, ステファニー and my nephews!!! they are so damn cute. haha.

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Friday..... meet up with baby :) :) :) Poor thing lo, for the past one week he gonna study until 6pm frm mon to fri. He was like rushing his homework when i meet him, cos he need to work during the weekends. Basically, no time for others! *cuddies* He was having sore throat and backache too and can't rest! haiz... have to wait till next next fri than can meet up le, pls take good care my love.

Finally, decorating my hp again :)

Furry Leopard print I sticked on! =D

I don't like my this phone at all, duno why did i get it in the first place. hehe.
My sis change her hp to that LG Ice-Cream pink phone! I'm so in love with that!! arhhh.....
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i'm going teaching soon. can't blog anymore. tata.

great movie day!

2009-04-12T18:54:00.006+08:00

Met up with Xueling love for movie ytd :) But before the movie at night, we had already planned to go fix our phones first as well as ShopPp for our birthdays' wishlist! =D hahaha. Before all the shoppings, I told her to meet me at Bugis first coz i gonna go to that costume shop at Bali Lane. Who knows... it just starts to rain so freaking heavy at bugis when we met up and that we couldn't just get our butts there! arhhh... Since, we didn't make it there so just went st to town to fix that lousy Sony Erisson W910i. It has been giving me trouble since i started using last July! Anyone that uses this phone will sure complains something about it. Xl got the same phone with me and was having trouble too, and so we might as well just go together :)

We walk so much again ytd! We were like doing some marathon shopping, from wisma to taka to paragon to heeren to centrepoint and finally......Cine!! to catch our movie of cos!! HEE. poor Xl hasn't got anything that fancies her thats she wants for her 21st, though we had went to so many shops and walked so much!

We still do not have enough time to shop when we had purposely chosen a later timing for movie. LOL. Anyway, i must say that the clothings for the current season of Miss Selfridge is so damn Preetty!! Afew nice tops and dresses just caught my eyes! I hardly will see really nice stuffs in there. Too bad, am is too broke to buy anything :(

Nvm, i shall shop again after my big day:) hehe!

After the not-enough-time shopping, we were late for our show.

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Confessions of a Shopaholic

Many many STARS for this movie!!

This show is simply so so so Funny, meaningful and touching!! =D loves.

Just feels like going shopping after that. Her dressing style in the movie is so nice mann. Colouful, i like!

HAHA.

Love her hair and PINK Lappy! super cute:)

ストーリー

(The Story)

Rebecca Bloomwood is a sweet and charming New York City girl who has a tiny, little problem that is rapidly turning into a big problem: she's hopelessly addicted to shopping and drowning in a sea of debt. While Rebecca has dreams of working for a top fashion magazine, she can't quite get her foot in the door-that is, until she snags a job as an advice columnist for a new financial magazine published by the same company. Overnight, her column becomes hugely popular, turning her into an overnight celebrity. But when her compulsive shopping and growing debt issues threaten to destroy her love life and derail her career, she struggles to keep it all from spiraling out of control--and is ultimately forced to reevaluate what's really important in life.

Shiring love!

I did abit of curls for my hair! Haven seen me with my natural curls for so long rite... as i was so addicted to do rebonding for my hair for the past one yr! hee... misses my natural curls (provided its not messy, natarul curls are just so Out of Control) !

Baby will be starting school tmr, hope everything will go smoothly. There are things that i know why you are worrying about dear, but everything will be so fine ya... loves sweetheart.

The Moulin Rouge

2009-04-10T15:54:00.005+08:00

Super late post! Sorry Deb! lol.

~Debbie's 21 Birthday!~

MOULIN ROUGE

Gorgeous babe! love her dress that night :)

HAHAHA!

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OMG. pls dun spot me inside pls. i look like... arhhhhh... -_-"

This was taken while we were waiting for bus to the chalet. lol.

My best clicks of pretty babes =D

We got ourselves each mask to go with the theme Moulin Rouge!

haha damn dun and was so crazy there taking lame picts.

Jellies love!

2009-04-04T23:34:00.002+08:00

Just reached home not long only, super tired can. I woke up like 7am and its sat you know!! lol. cos need to go for the Quantum Touch workshop by Bingz.. hee. Its healing touch therapy! quite amazing i think..... shall elaborate more after i have practiced enough! :) The course started at 11am and ends ard 5pm... took whole day and tmr i need to go too! two days for basics! Met up with Xueling for dinner :) She acc me to bugis to look for "something".... haha. but those two shops are alr close by the time we reached there. We got such a hard time to find that Aliwal Street! lol. WALKED the whole of bugis and than to beach road (finally found aliwal) and back to bugis! goodness.... i was already so sleepy and still walked so much. Super hungry at that time too. hah. In the end, went to PS to eat instead. Wanted to catched Confessions of the Shopaholic but tickets are all sold out la. Its Sat what can we expect?? and XUELING... i shall book you next week for movie again and fixing of our phones!! :):):) hahaha. Anyway, the funny thing is we both verbally only meet up for dinner today and din plan what to do after dinner but...!

BOTH in our hearts we alr planned to watch confession today with each other!! haha. Super qiao mann and of cos... great minds think alike =D loves:)

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This was what i saw when i stepped into baby's room ytd. haha.

little sweet thing he does ^-^

~Its Hello Kitty jellies~

He bought Jolin's new album for me too :)

hehe lovelove hamham...

wed or thurs am i seeing you next week??? can't wait... hehe :)

Little Avril

2009-03-31T22:44:00.004+08:00

Daphne's sweetie!!

~Princess Avril~

Went to Dap's baby Avril shower :) The little sweetie is so damn cute!!

But Avril was all alone sleeping so hard to take a photo with her little eyes open!! haha.

And this is the gift!! Very cute can... Look at the tibits with the printed packaging!! omg. how could i bear to eat it?? Even the tiny bottles are pasted with printed stickers of Avril. lol.

Dap dap :)

she manage to slim down quite alot le...

Still so pretty :)
hee!

The happy Sallz and me!

Oh no... Little Avril is crying...

Yea!! Baby Avril finally woke up! lol.

Was too hard to even take photo with Dap and baby. She is just probably too busy and baby sleeping!! So ya.. photo blurred..

Baby: *YAMN*

Thats Dap's Walk-In Wardrobe!! So cool can. That is just what anyone wanted!

Didn't take much in there.. *privacy stills*! :)

I love BIG mirrors!

That's first time in my life to attend two Babies shower in just a day!

Not only that.. can you imagine that one is at Sengkang and the other one is at Bukit Batok?? Like extreme two ends?! Haha but we have got drivers though! hehe thank god! Anyway, Dap just live a few blocks away from me, and thats not so bad la. =D

Ate so much from both houses, buffet buffets eat and eat.

Didn't manage to take photos at Alex's hse, too many pple mann... like wedding... lol.

I still have so many other things to blog... but no time and no COM!!

arhhh.......

will update soon again!

Loves me lala :)

The girls!

2009-03-28T16:55:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21st Birthday DEBBIE!!

One sneak preview of the party photo first! Wait till Carmen and Xueling send us the rest of the picts before i do a full post! :)

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I slept at 4am ytd!! zzzzzz and woke up at 9! hah! Was out chilling with my darlings after meeting baby for dinner. We were at double bay at raffles city :) The drinks there seriously not recommended! lol. The alchohol there just not up to standard i think. hee... Have a great great chat with these girls, esp gine busy updating us her recent life, hasn't been great for her... but don't think too much alr girl!! There is nothing we can do when we don't even know whats on his mind! Enjoy your one day trip at Batam today huh =D

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My baby love has been working hard, take care take care take care~misses.

LOVES

永远

2009-03-22T17:23:00.004+08:00

~BOA~

永远

I love this song! =D

Wow... Yeah...

私の指（ゆび）はきっと君の頬（ほほ）にそっと

触（ふ）れるためだけにあって触れるためだけにあって

辉（かがや）く月〔つき）はきっと君と一绪にずっと

见上げるためだけにあって见上げるためだけにあったの

挫けそうな时にいつも隣（となり）にいて

笑（わら）ってくれた君はもういないんだ

ポロポロ手（て）のひらから

こぼれる悲（かな）しみ My Love

今夜〔こんや）この街（みち）でたぶん私

が一番（いちばん）泣（な）いている

君に爱されたから私は私になれた

时を运〔はこ）ぶ风（かぜ）よどうかあの

日の永远（えいえん）を帰（かえ）して

Bye Bye Bye... Why did you say bye bye...

あの顷（ころ）二人いつも闻（き）いてた曲（きょく）が

ふと街角（まちかど）に流（なが）れてる

イヤホン「注：earphone」片方（かたほう）ずつで

君が突然（とつぜん）强（つよ）くひっぱるからね

ちょっと耳（みみ）から外〔はず）れちゃって

私が怒（おこ）るとふざけて

ふいに君と目（め）が合（あ）って唇（くちびる）

を重（かさ）ねたずっと私を守（まも）るって言（い）ったのに

ベイビーブルー「baby blue」の空そっと手（て）

を伸（の）ばしてみる张（は）り裂（さ）けそうな胸（むね）

もう一度（いちど）ただ抱（だ）

きしめてあの时素直（すなお）

になればこんな事（こと）にならなかった

目覚（めさめ）たら全（すべ）てが梦（ゆめ）

であってよそしてまたふざけて

Bye Bye Bye... Why did you say bye bye...

道行（みちよ）く人をぼんやり见ていた

君と歩（ある）いたプラタナス并木（なみき）「注：法国梧桐树」

今度（こんど）パスタ作（つく）ってって

来年（らいねん）旅行（りょこう）しようってずっと

私を守（まも）るって言（い）ったのにポロポロ手（て）

のひらからこぼれる悲（かな）しみ My Love ...

stomach spinning!

2009-03-21T13:25:00.003+08:00

I miss blogging! lol. Although is like only one week plus plus didn't really blog anything. What to do?? When i got no com to use? SAD! Laptop gone to sleeping mode alr! haha. only can get to use com when my cousin is ard and borrow from them.

Have been so busy at work as usual, tired and sick of working there alr.

I have never get tired of working there, not until now!! The change of management and all is so frastrating. Endless work to do. Basically just sucks! The only think that make me looks forward after work is my dance classes and meeting up with frens and of cos my darling too... hee!

Wed just brought my ah ma for the regular once every 3 mths check up at SGH. Poor ah ma got so many medications!! She can take up to 20 tablets daily eh... thats sicked mann.. scary! Anyway, i was so not feeling well that day too but still got to bring ah ma for checkup. Was down with bad flu... thought i will recover the next day but it just got worse la! Woke up at 7 on thurs and starts to diarroea and vomit for almost 2 freaking hrs! I've never got so sicked before. Super scary la, my stomach was turning upside down inside and my face just went pale. Lucky i was ok after that 2hrs. Doctor just said that i have a stomach flu and thank god... its not food poisoning! :) I'm still out to meet up with baby although am sick. I can't just missed out the only day to meet him just cos i'm sick and got to rest at home. I know u guys will think that i should just rest but ya if i really do that... it will be next thurs to see him again... i just treasure every little time with him cos nobody can predict there won't be last min thing that stop us from meeting. Thats how precious the time i had with baby.

Met up with Lilian love for hair cut ytd :) Finally get to trim my hair again. Had dinner with Lilian and her Alan with last min pop up Xueling. haha. She was so headache what to wear for Deb's Party! Its like next wed, its a weekday and partying after work i hope it won't be too tiring :)

Thats all i should update...
I have yet catch Marley and Me!! arhhh.... lol.

Barbie*

2009-03-10T23:21:00.008+08:00

Its BARBIE's 50th!

09 March 2009

I have been quite a fan of Barbie Dolls!

Initially, I don't own one myself but not until recently......

i've got one of the Collectors' Pink Label Barbie! :)

Will post the pict next time!
(Kept it well in Baby's hse)

Let me just do a short intro of The First Barbie Doll!
Made of flesh-toned plastic, the first Barbie® dolls wore a black and white knit swimsuit that was used through 1961. In 1959 the accessories were white sunglasses with blue lenses, black open-toe shoes, and hoop earrings.
So DAMN RETRO!

There was a Fashion Show held just for Barbie's Big Day!
They look so gorgeous =D
I love this!

Thats Ken and Barbie! hee...

Thats ALL!!

My short post on Barbie's 50th!

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Met up with Xueling love on Sunday.

She bought a Barbie Polaroid can!! Omg.

Super cute :)

She is not a fan of Barbie though, right xueling? Its was just so coincidence that when she show me her newly, it was Barbie's day the next day! lols.

Just nice i can blog it together! HEHE.

Acc her to get the films at lucky plaza, and i think its quite a old model and there isn't alot of places selling the films already. And its so ex for just a box of 10 films!

We had some time playing with it! HAHAHA! =D

Love the colours :)

The pict we took! Its still looks alright though the colour effect of the film is not that good.

No ideal why we were quite dread out that day, probably we got to work the next day!

Didn't really shop much too and i really need to go budget for quite some time. Hasn't been using money that wisely again. lol. MUST SAVE!

PS: I'm so sicked of work... haiz.

but

am meeting baby tmr!!! :)

lol!

A blink of our eyes*

2009-03-08T11:05:00.006+08:00

Our 3 years Anniverseriesssss!!!

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06 March 2009

I love my HamHam like nuts :)

We actually planned to go places that we used to go dating last time, but it seems that they are all gone or restructed over the years!! :(

We had so many places that we been to and of cos for those special places; our memories are still keeping well and nice in our hearts.

There are so many many Ups and Downs we had been through over this recent passed one year. It wasn't smooth at all, its like a test for our love. There were so many changes and we got a hard time to overcome all these. Its the most time we had quarrelled and tear for each other.

Through all these, knowing that our love for each other is so deep or even deeper than we can't imagine, keep us going on and never apart.

We are still learning through our journey of love together and also making sure we are always there for each other :)

We have so many plans ahead of us... and i know we can do it baby :)

~LOVES~
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Thats the doggy representing us! lol.

Initially, i bought the brown doggy for him and than recently he bought the red one for me :)

hee.. loves.

We are on the way out :)
I still remember when we just got together, he hated taking photos cos he said that he never know how to smile nicely in picts.
But... after being with me and taken so many photos... we shall see...

ok maybe this is not a good example...lol

haha! the nerds.
this is not the right example as well.........

Thats it! I love this pict baby :)

*Muacks*

We already planned to take neoprints! We used to take neoprints on our monthly Anni' but as time goes by its too many months already! So, we are taking it occasionally now :)

He is seriously not sleeping... hehe..

My lovelove*

After that, we had our dinner at Shokudo! My fave place for jap food! =D

We really are eating so much just the two of us!

My darling*

Lets stay this way dear, always.

I love you.

Count.Friday.Count

2009-03-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

I have been even more busy at work recently... mainly cos i have took over some new things from Irene that had just left my co last week. No choice! Everywhere retrenchment, what to do?
Not so bad though cos i still have ways to getaway!
My most relaxing workout to kill those works' stress is to go dancing!! :) Simply just love my dance classes! I just love the choreography ytd by Clare for the song by Beyonce: Diva! Hoping i can always continue dancing and keeps progressing and than gets better! Should go for more classes of different instructor; as what they say we can learn different style from each instructor.... but maybe not for the time being! budget budget! lol. thats very sad k :(
One more reason i need to go budget... my birthday celebration! Already planning! :)
Thanks to my uncle! He have been so enthusiatic in planning and helping me book the chalet :) HAHAHA. cos his fren got some membership thingy so ya can get better rates! He will let me know by tmr whether i can book that chalet anot, and till than... i will update everyone again for where it gonna be!
Will be meeting xueling love for movie tmr! :) and i will be doing my brows too:)
Most imptly...
i just can't wait for.........FRIDAYto come =D at least something for Baby and me to look forward to, recently. HEE.

new, gone, moving on

2009-02-28T17:47:00.005+08:00

Daphne just gave birth to a girl on Thurs! Feels so haapy for her, looking at her describing the whole process of labour, is really so amazing :)

She looks great but dun wanna take photo! lol. haha. She just afraid she looks too fat or pale.
Thats her Princess girl, Avril!

We bought a balloon for Avril =D

After visiting Dap, we went for dinner at Novena.

Hazel!

We ordered quite alot of dishes but i didn't post it all la. This Hot stone rice is really nice! :)

Wanted to have some Ice-cream for desserts but was having tummy upset :(

Thats Salihan! my co drafter!

It was IRENE's last day in Chubb as well! Will miss her so much! Her super loud voice and all those lunching out that she drive us to and the food she always brought for us!

She ordered so much pizzas can! To treat all of us ytd :)

Thats Irene, with Vera and Kelf!

Thats Irene and me!!!

Look at the way hows this photo was taken :) Sallz's idea lo. I think is quite cute!

but i look so tired!! ugly!

Kelf so cute lo holding on to her big big stomach.

We bought this for Irene! for her to hang in her Car! she is already using it now :)

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HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to Shanon!

I didn't take much photos! sad. din even have the chance to take with Shanon.
We went for her chalet at City Beach Resort on thurs.

But the actual celebration was yesterday but we were all too busy to go le.

Hope you have enjoy yr big day and most imptly feels better! She was not feeling well on thurs.

Thats the mini pool there, i don't think they actually cleans up the pool. No filter!

Shannelle love!

but this two nuts still swims in there!

They were so drunk that day!

My dear is at fault lo... he should have stop xiang earlier.

Baby and me didn't stay over cos both of us have to work the next day. We left around 2am and i was so damn tired at work ytd! Not enough sleep, slept like 3hrs only? oh!

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Anyway, one by one everyone's turning 21! Can't wait for more parties are coming up ayea! =D

A day for myself.

2009-02-21T21:03:00.003+08:00

I have not been updating my blog that frequent already. Hasn't been resting not until today... that was like since last week??
what should i update first? hee... Lets just start with my V.day! My dear gave me the gift in advance 2days cos he was working on the exact day itself. Somehow its seem to be no choice to work on that day so ya i don't blame him! but i initially i was quite upset though. Anyway is over le and i did went to Ubin to find him cos at least he can be with me on V.day nite. (though there were quite alot of "bulbs" around. haha.)

This is the Kitty wallet he bought!

I really love love love it :) and its gold colour!

*Muacks*
Bracelets for both of us... thats my gift for him.

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Hope my baby really like it :)

PS: Can't wait for our coming big day :) hee.

The next day, sunday, we went to JB to see the streets cultural performance. Its was really great! Had fun watching and really so damn interesting :) I didn't take any photos, sadly, cos of my lousy "going to die" cam! :( who wanna sponsor to get a new one for me pls?? hee. Anyway, this JB trip wasn't just the two of us la, his event's boss brought us and baby's colleagues together. We ate so much there cos there wasn't anything nice for us to shop at all! Just eat eat eat! We were back just the next day itself! I took leave on Monday lo. Bobian!

Tuesday: 16.02.2009

Working and teaching after work! (and was home blogging about carmen's birthday :) which is just my previous post below!!)

Wednesday: 17.02.2009

Supposingly to meet up with ezann, evelyn, zihui and sofie but in the end still cancel! I think we got no luck to meet up mann! lol. zihui was not feeling well so ya all don't wanna meet lo :(

Since they cancel... i end up having dinner with lilian and alan! and ya i feel bad though for asking lilian for dinner cos she was supposed to be studying and i go disturb. haha. Have some short chat with her at SMU before i went off. They were there studying.

Thursday: 18.02.2009

Finally i have "migrate" to another dept at work that was planned like 2mths ago. Initally, i thought it will be too bore over at that dept cos there are fewer pple but now... i think its not really that bad la! I had so much more time to do my own work and more concentration too :) I no longer need to pick up any customer calls for technical faults anymore and that really save loads of time for me to complete my things. I still gonna go over to my previous dept everyday too cos many of my documents are there. Its more lively over at the previous dept... probably cos its consist our sales team as well. I think there are always good and bad things over at diff dept la and its just the way how i'm going to adapt to it :)

and that day after work-----I am with my darling BABY!lol :)

Friday: 19.02.2009

Met up with Xueling love! We watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button!!! So nice!!!

Very uniqued show i thought, and its 3 hrs long :) so worth it so meaningful. See how life could be spend in the other way round.

Xueling love just came back from Taiwan a few days ago and she did bought something for me too!! hee. Thanks so much for that Leopard Print leggings! and that cutie wallet :)

and Xl... i still wanna watch He is not that into you!! hahaha.

Wassup today?? A day at home to rest!

Not really the whole day though... cos bought my ah ma for checkup in the morning.

After that, i took out all my Jap's notes and started revising! Hadn't study my jappy for so long and i have decided to revised what i could and get back to my Japanese lauguage class soon! Wanna continue progressing that :)

There and than i was reading my fave mag and listening to my fave music.

I hadn't been treating myself this way for so long! Had been so affected by so many things and almost lost myself :(

Had been thinking and always prioritised other things and pple before me when these other things and pple dun reflect this way to me. So ya whats the point right?

I'm now still spending my own time myself blogging away, enjoying my tv show =D lol.

Carmie Carmie's 21st!!!

2009-02-17T22:54:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CARMEN!!

*13 February 2009*

Carmen had her 21st held and celebrated at Nuovo Condo's Function room! Its at Yio chu Kang.

She is the first of my sec sch clicks to turn 21! So many pple attended and feels so happy for Carmie dear! *HUGS*

The babes that never fails to meet up! Oh! but Xueling not in here! She is in Taiwan at that time. SAD.

Haha, i realize something... duno why Sj is always carrying her bag. lol.

Sj usually stands this way, ya.

Carmen & Lilian!

Trying to pose something but ends up like this. haha.

Climbing up just to take picts! :)

Debbie & Carmen!

Loves Carmen! =D

Carmen!! So glad to be there for ya Big day! You sure had so much Fun yea, and the many gifts you received! Wear the watch and use the wallet when we all meet up!

Stays HAPPY, SWEET, no worries no stress and pretty pretty! =D

My everything*

2009-02-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

EVERYTHING

My everything is you* baby

V.Day's coming!

But my baby will be working...... hmmm...

Notime

2009-02-08T22:44:00.009+08:00

Finally a day at home today! :)

Still not enough though, no time to pack my things. Its laying everywhere!!

Not to even mention about having my own time next week, all fully planned with so many things and events coming up. Most exciting thing will be... Carmen's 21st next Friday!! I just can't wait =D

Whatssup ytd? met up with gine!! after so long since she left my co. I ask her to acc me to get my V.day gift for baby :) Thanks to her, i able to get something nice for baby. yea!

Happy mood =D

Gine babe :) Manage to catch up with her about quite alotsa things! Our all time talks about our love life and stuffs! and you know what gine??? i just love the lame "mo qi" we still have till now! wahaha :) Really hope you can find ya sweety lovelove soon and be happy and move on happily in life! Updates me with anything yea!!

*LOVES*

i love my leopard print bag! :) hehe.

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Steamboat at Chua's place on Friday! =D

Thats chua holding on to his video cam!! hahaha

He is one of the very nice and lame tech in my co. lol.

He acting like one camera man that day!! hahaha. Look at him! We were all busy eating but he is there busy taking picts!! He is just trying to make use of his Nikon pro-cam, haha cos he is afraid it will go dusty soon! He will hardly got a chance to go overseas already cos of his new born baby :) Gonna take care of his baby boy so bo bian!

There he go again... LOL.

Thats his camera! My baby and me wanted such cam for so long!! I don't thing is time for us to get this so soon, no chance no money to travel yet!

The following picts were all taken using his camera, so much nicer mann!!

We are trying to imitate the painting!! hahaha.

Gine love!

Thats chua's baobei, he is so chubby lo super adorable!! pinch pinch!

Thats sallz and her hubby! so sweet :)

While they were playing manjong... i was playing with the cam!! haha and chua thought me to use this mode. The whole pict is blurred with only the focus of the colourful toy.

I just love this pict!! :)
Focus on the mandarin oranges!

The mahjong's pple.

Gine left early that day. We did play poker cards also and i lost!! arhhh...

Tomorrow is the last day of cny! Thats so fast rite, 15days and is all up!

No more angbaos and gamblings!

RANDOM!

2009-02-05T21:34:00.010+08:00

These are all my super random picts that i might have been lazy/tired/no mood to post or... whatever it is?? HEE.

No topic at all, seriously randoms!

I'm not thinking and brain dead right now. lol.

After shopping with xueling love*

I wanna collect these!

The balloon i had mentioned in my previous entry but not yet posted out. Like freaking long alr, the kitty balloon is so flat now le :(

My baby bought for me!

Kitty cap! i love it mann from my baby too...

but obviously i don't point that finger?? pls dun spoilt my image. lol!
The following few picts were all taken after walking the chinatown cny pesar malam!

He obviously love this doggy more than me... lol.

*i gave him de... hee.*

Pineapple tarts from Singtel to my company! very nice to eat can!! =D

I love this! Akazukin! kawaii right!!

This is whats inside! loves!

After my last haircut!

KTV at crystalbelle after dance! This is really overdued!

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Michelle's belated Birthday on Monday!

NYDC's "Priscilla's Favourite"

Its really stated in the menu! and super nice la no wonder name after ME!

wahahaha =D

Cheesecake with choco ice-cream!
Thats Mr Mornin!

After dance at NYDC!

Thats Jolene and Mich!

Happy "blur" Mich!

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My sis gave me these on cny!

Kawaii bra plus Kitty angbao!

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My sis gave me this on cny too, but it should meant to be my belated x'mas gift! For facial pads!oops, feel so guilty didn't get anything for her...

Dear's cap and my kitty, decorated by dear's ah ma. lol.

hahaha, his ah ma put his cap on my kitty and insist that it look so nice.

super funny granny!
Hip-Hop Hello Kitty!

i swear i hardly ever tied my hair to go out.

PS: Hoping everything will turn better, i still has that hope on you* I love you dear.

...

2009-02-01T10:48:00.003+08:00

My heart that so much into you

sliced and bleed

Getting away from you

Getting away from your life

telling me not to breathe

I don't know what else i could do

I'm suffocated.

I'm waiting

for

one day that you could understand how i feels.

better 2009 pls

2009-01-31T19:38:00.003+08:00

Great great news!! My Ah Ma just discharged today =D

Hope everything just be so fine from now on!

Things hasn't been going my way correctly/planned since the first day of 2009,

so what can i expect more for this year?

What kind of mood should i have??

2009-01-30T18:01:00.003+08:00

My ah ma got hospitalized again yesterday :(

Poor thing, somemore its still new year.

Luckily, she is better right now and should be able to discharge next two days :) YEA!!

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Happy 21st Birthday my Sweetheart!

30 January 09

Supposed to stay in ubin with you till sunday, but cannot cos i just worry for my ah ma.

So... i went in ubin with baby ytd and left early noon today to visit my ah ma.

Still, i got to be there with you counting down ya birthday at least ! :)

Loves my ham ham.

Muacks

crazy

2009-01-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

We met. today

We talk.

We joke.

We laugh.

We still love.

Quarrels, that hurts, than cry than love again.

Forget everything and enjoy your birthday.

i'm missing the past...

2009-01-27T20:11:00.004+08:00

I woke up at 10plus today happily waiting for your call.
I've got all prepared, what to bring over to your house, what to wear to visit your granny.
Finally, you woke up at 11plus and call me.
I anxiously asked you, what time will you be coming over to my house and than going back to your hse together.
You sounded so shock.
You forgotten totally that we are surposed to meet today.
You blame me for not reminding you :(
Will anyone forget about bringing your gf to do hse visiting? i don't understand dear.
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Yesterday, there wasn't any calls or msg from you at all.
I don't dare to even msg you, cos i know you might be busy so ya...
Finally, i called you at around 10plus at nite and you did not answer.
You just msg me this: "i playing mahjong now"
Understanding that you are not convenience to talk so i just take it.
There wasn't anymore msg from you even when i did msg you that i will be sleeping soon.
No reply. It was already 1am at that time.
I called you alround 2plus and was worried. cos i thought usually u will still at least send me a good nite msg.
You totally forget about me.
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See... don't blame me for always comparing how you treat your frens and how you treat me.
This wasn't the first time already.
You can remember to meet up with them ytd and forgot about meeting me today.
Meeting your fren and meeting me were all planned last week.
Than you got pissed off and saying i always got a problem with your frens? huh?? Who will not go compare rite?
Dear, when will you ever understand? We must both do our part rite? Did you?
I tried to understand you and knowing that you were with your frens ytd so didn't dare to even msg you, i'm afraid i will disturb you.
But now you are pissed off with me being not understanding?
You told me you are tired today and better dun meet.
So i thought i should be the one being not happy, but you get even not happy with me.
Quarrelled again.
Thats it, same problem appears again and again.
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I asked when will you ever really go think this problem.
You refused to do so.
You said it will just get you frastrated.
You choose to run away.
You choose to leave me there crying alone.
You leave me there thinking that i'm ain't that important to you.
You make me wanna give up.
You blame me always wanna break up with you.
I did not bare to do it eventually.
You mean so much to me.
You are always being all out to your frens.
I know i can't changed you so...
I decided to compromise and tell myself to change.
Change to someone:
that always waiting for you to call.
that always waiting for you to say when to meet.
I'm always waiting for you.
It had been going on for almost 2yrs.
There was time you work so hard and i understand and never asked much from you.
There was time when you have so many off days... you choose to meet your same frens more than spending time with me.
You never thought of making up the lost time with me.
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I missed your old self dear...
I missed how you shower me with your care and concern.
I missed you saying you wanna meet me cos you missed me.
I missed you planning to go out with me or even plan to catch a movie with me.
(you don't care about all these already, it always i'm doing the plan)
You don't mind whether meeting anot.
I'm i asking too much? Its just so simple isn't it?
I feels neglected... it had been so long....
that you finally said:
"Since it had been so long already just continue with it lor..."
Continue being neglected from you?
Dear... aren't you being selfish?
You know i won't give up on you so are you taking it for granted?
I always cried about it... all you tell me is : "always only know how to cry cry cry...."
Why do i bother to tear? cos i care... cos you meant so much to me....
I missed you telling me not to cry cos you will feels pain for me.
One thing that keep me going on with you... is you really do love me alot too.
I missed our past so much dear................
I really do miss.............

all worth while

2009-01-26T22:43:00.009+08:00

Basically i've been busied with my baby's birthday stuffs for the passed one week!

This started like last Friday where i met up with Xueling to acc me to get the gift for him.

Guess what i bought for him??? HEE.

*IPOD TOUCH*

(almost went bankrupt getting this for him. hee.)

I think its all worth it!

Firstly, cos its his 21ST BIRTHDAY! so i won't forgive myself if i get him something ain't that special. Most importantly, he wanted it all long ago and he is so HAPPY to receive it ^-^ lovesloves

For the next two days after i got the gift, i've to figure out how to use it cos i wanna put all his fave stuffs inside first to surprise him too. hee. I tell u what, itunes is super so not user friendly! haha. But thanks to xueling and that help me out quite alot on this cos she using Iphone and also regine for the videos! hehe.

Not only this, i did a big birthday card for baby too... hope he really like it :)

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I took almost a day to finished up!

On wed i've already passed the ipod and card to him ^-^ He is super anxious to get it so ya i gave it to him one week earlier! Anyway, on the exact day itself i will be joining him in ubin cos his bossy wanna celebrate for him somehow. So there won't be time!

I love to see the moment and expression on his face when he got the gift :) This kind of feeling is so sweet and i love when he is so happy happy :):):) This is really my first time i get to hide from him what exactly i wanna get for him! cos we always manage to know/guess corectly whats on our mind. LOL. We really know each other too well i think =D Actually he thought of me getting this ipod but he thought was it was too ex so ya drop the possibility of i getting for him. haha. but anyway i already planned it long ago before he ever guess it correctly.

Not only this little surprise.......... see whats below. hee.

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For the passed one week....

I've trying to get in contact with his frens! :)

I've planned an outing for him.

*Singing session*

I DID IT ALL SECRETLY BEHIND HIM. LOL.

It was all meant to be a SURPRISE! =D

I asked all his frens to keep it from baby, telling him that this is just a gathering they organize. The reason why i arranged for singing cos my dear baby love to SING so much! :) But all along he was too busy with work and also his frens dun really go sing i think.

Shanelle was assigned as the one being the 'organizer' and jio baby out! She help to get the cake too. Thanks babe!

Everything went smoothly........ till the day.....

It was all organized on Thurs.

Met up with baby first to have dinner before meeting the rest.

Baby somehow ever thought that we might be celebrating for him but not quite sure though. haha. The way i talk to him on that day was quite funny, all along i was keep laughing to myself at the way he guessing the whole thing right. I think he thought i was weird! lol.

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Kbox at Cine!

I've already reserve a room there :)

Look at kiamkiam!! Sing until so serious! *close eyes* lol.
Thats Shanon and Ben beside him.

Thats xiang (currypuff)! aiyo shy la.... haha..

Thats cong, kiamkiam.

Everything was all so fine until someone at kbox spoilt my plan!!! ARHHH!

A girl working there did something so wrong!

This was what happened...

Baby went for a toilet break, she approached him and asked him this----

"when you want us to serve the cake huh?"

Obviously, when its time to serve we will tell them right??? whats wrong mann!!! so damn pissed! Baby came back to the room laughing to himself and tell me to ask the girl outside. wth.

My surprise for baby is gone :(

However, the girl... knowing that we were so unhappy... came up to me and shannelle to apologised and tell us a PLAN.

I think her colleague with her came up with this.

She said she gonna bluff us that the cake was drop and smashed kind of thing and i will be the one being Very very paranoid and ANGRY. lol. She wants shanelle and me also to make a din out of it to asked for the manager.

The thing is we managed to bluff my baby and also the rest too!! (cos this new plan only shanelle and me know) haha. Everybody was also super pissed off by "the cake drop?? what!!"

THAN!!

The so call manager act like feeling so bad and apologising to us........

and before he could say finish....

the girl bought in the cake!

It did surprise everybody not my baby only la! =D
The acting part was FUN but somehow my planned ain't perfect!!

My baby still feels very happy though :)

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They shared a cake for baby.

Thats the wine from ben! :)

He is laughing to the cake. haha.

Making a wish...

Shanelle is trying to remove the plastic thingy round the cake!

Can't wait to 'chop' the cake! lol

His crazy bunch of friends! =D

hahaha...

kiss kiss from me...

ok, they insisted we should do this.

We continue singing till 3pm!

Thats shanelle sweetie :)

Shanon and Ben...

My sweetheart ^-^
lovelove

This pict is funny! We took this after we just left kbox.

Race at Cine!

Just nice four colours row for them each!

Their big and smelly asses...

He look so bu shuang here. haha,

Just we were trying to take more photos...

One super passer-by walked passed!

WAHAHAHA!

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Thanks guys for being super on! All make it out for baby =D

LOVES

Reunion FINALLY

2009-01-25T23:46:00.010+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! =D

Reunion dinner on eve! My Family actually had reunion LUNCH instead, as usual. I don't know why we had such practice to have lunch la. Anyway, the food are too good!!! Had Steamboat and additional dishes like Curry and our favourite "Meat Wrap" lol. I was to busy and forgot to take the food! arhhh!!!

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Anyway, let me just update where was i ytd!

Met up with my darling Xueling in town to do last minute shopping! I spend like OVER! over of what my maximum spending i've actually planned. lol. Can't control mann, will you get 3 bags at one normal shopping trip? I DID. I bought like 2 bags ytd, haha but i've decided to get the 3rd bag cos it was on 50% :) HEE. It was so damn crowded too.

Dinner with Lilian too that came to join us after our shop shop!

We headed down to Zhiyong's place for some gamblingsSS! (but xueling got to go home to help out her mum for cny thingy, so din join us.)

Zhiyong's place :)

Learned how to played Poker! I mean like those that we will only see in TV shows, get to "SHOWHAND" kind of game. HAH! so exciting, lol! =D

Not much photos! I lost more than 10bucks ytd! BUN LUCK!

We had our supper at Newton before heading home.

I really have no luck! Left my wallet in Chongjun's car. I didn't realize until i need to pay the taxi driver at my house there. But the good thing is, at least my wallet is not lost! I think i should feels happy hor. Still, i'm super careless! So, no choice and got to meet Chongjun today early noon to get from him.

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~REUNION~

It had been so many years, for those that should come for Reunion is all here today! WEEEEE!! Feels tada HAPPY! lol. So fun, so crowded, love the noise, love the kids, super lively =D

Jovelle posing. haha.

Thats my blonde hair sis with her two kids!
Thats Aloysius, my fav cousin. hehe Craziness!
Hyper active and never tired of games! lol.

Funny Sho! Can't stop moving around =D

Thats my Ah ma's eldest and the youngest grand children!

See, The age difference!

Trying to get the kids really for some photos!!
They just can't settle down la, haha damn cute.

more people..

even more people now, i'm in! :)

YEA! Thats our Full Gang! LOL. like finally.

The Grand and grand grand chidren of my ah ma.
i love this pict!
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My that funny Aloysius duno whats wrong with his EYES!
LOOK!! WAHAHAHA!
(and the 3 little kids looking away. hehe.)

Sweetie Jovelle :)

My cousin thought her this! (dig nose for photo's pose?)
I'm too tired to continue typing! still have so much to updates for my passed one week! shall do it when i'm free. Getting my sleep soon, slept like only 4hrs ytd!

ZZZZZZZZ

Good Night everyone!

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PS: Feels like giving my baby a hug right now, a tight one. He got to work today, super poor thing, and ya there is another thing i feels sad for baby...... haiz. don't wanna write it here la.

ham is my love*

2009-01-17T22:04:00.004+08:00

Hamham is love ^^

Busy week! Just brought my granny to chinatown just now, she wanna shop for some new year goodies and do her hair!! perm! lol. Now she is so pretty with her currypuff head. It was so so crowded there, everyone out to do last weekend shopping before cny.

Actually i had already went for the street pasar malam on thurs with my baby :) Acc him to get some gifts for his bosses. The stores this year really decrease so much!! So little to see and no Hello Kitty stores anymore :(

I always used to shop for kitty goodies at such cny street stores. haha. BUT! Anyway, baby still got me a Kitty ballooon and Kitty cap! =D Can you imagine me holding the big kitty balloon walking around and taking train home with my baby. hee. Like valentine day :) really love the kitty balloon alot!! shall post the pict soon!

Yesterday was out with my darling xueling, she acc me to get my baby's birthday gift :) We had dinner at coffee club and was actually planning to shop but we spend too much time talking and eating until shops are all almost close! SAD k nrv really shop :(

I've been spending so much recently. birthday birthday so many Birthdays! lol. This is such a brief entry lazy to post picts. hoho thats all!

the wrong mood.

2009-01-11T17:11:00.002+08:00

Met up with Lilian to do my brows at Brows House in Wheelock :) Than to shop of cos!! Shop for our New Year Clothes! I think its just an excuse for us to get more clothes for ourselves :) We started off at Zara and we were stucked in there for like at least 2hrs? LOL. Only we can do this together, take our own sweet time going through everything in zara. Wahaha! Anyway it was still having sales so ya we spend quite alot. oops.

When we were in the fitting room!

WE LOVE OUR JEANS!! yea! I just love my jean's shade =D

NICE!

Zhiyong, Chongjun and Jialing join us for dinner :) We had Botak Jones! Finally a new outlet in town. Their food are really nice but the queue there was freaking long also, probably cos it was Sat?
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Anyway, i was so emo yesterday (i think is this few days)... hate such feeling, like suddenly feeling so stupid not to understand anything. lol. PMS? haha. thanks lilian for being my listener yesterday :) OH. Can't see ya for dance tmr. Anyway Lilian!, i think we should plan one day and do something fruitful, like studying? You can study yr sch work and i can revised my Japanese, its getting rustly in my head!
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PS: I'm having some plans for my baby's birthday. Its coming!!

matt green??

2009-01-10T12:30:00.002+08:00

Just got a haircut and colour on wed!!

Can't really see the colour of my hair, supposingly should be brownish matt green! i love my hair! Thanks to Lilian always acc me for most of my haircut session lol. Anyway, got to see her real soon in a few hours time again! I'm going to do my brows and we gonna go shopping!! I'm seeing her like the fourth time this week. hah! =D

where is it now?

2009-01-10T00:28:00.004+08:00

should i give you all my trust again?
i used to have it all to you but now i just find it hard to give it all out again.
i don't wanna you breaking my trust again.
this feeling really sucks.

My Honeybee*

2009-01-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

My love~

Cause You're My Everything

就一个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界

想给你Everything

不管用多少个明天

永远从此刻开始算起

你的爱是我的

Everything

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*Happy Anni my Sweetheart*

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love you deep deep...

Holidays!

2009-01-04T16:32:00.007+08:00

Finally!! These photos have been pending for quite something!

My Xmas and New Year Eve with my gorgeous babes! =D

Too bad Carmen and Debbie can't make it for our Xmas outing :(

But i will get to see them real soon, everybody i hope! :)

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Met them at Holland. V for lunch at Breko!

Xueling and me was earlier that day and we got a hard time finding that Breko.

I love all these shop houses :)

and i took this! love the colours and the old old look in it :)

Lilian love and me!!

The two happy girls =D

we are trying sit very STRAIGHT you see. lol

I think we are too crazy to take photos even with lamp post!! -_-"

wahahahha

I seriously duno whats up with Sooj, trying hard to act like a Lamp.

hahaha.

I think there were so many people looking at us, like what the hell are we doing.

haha. hugging lamp?

Anyway, i think i'm the one started all these.

HEE.

Lilian got to go off early to meet her frens, so the rest of us headed town to shop!!

We were too tired for other photos already, i was down with BAD FLU and ya look at my tired face in it!! arhhh...

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Clubbing at REBEL on

*New Year Eve*

Met up with dearie xueling and had dinner at PS 1st before heading down to clarke quay to meet the rest.

Zhiyong, Chongjun and Tian Hoon were there too!

But i realize none of the picts got them in it.

ooops.

In rebel, freaking crowded at the dance floor.

Xueling, Maxine and Mich!

Look at lilian! Hiding behind. lol.

HAHA, This is Funny!

Lilian the PASSER-BY*!

Trying to walk pass huh.

Had so much fun with them!!

The rest went home after club so only left Xl and me. We wanted to wait for the first train so thought of hanging around first! Just wanna tell girls better don't stay till too late if you are wasn't with a bunch of pple outside. Of cos, places that are really quiet is even worse! Xl and me encountered something really bad!! Somemore on the New Year! What luck!

Anyway, girls please be careful outside :)

The Anna Sui*

2009-01-03T14:39:00.004+08:00

Gine love last day in chubbies!

It was the last day of 2008 as well.

Hope everything goes well for you in this brand new year!

Must always stay happy oh Gine!

*Hugs & Kisses*

~PRETTY GINE~

Don't you think is so sweet and cute!! Thanks gal for making time and do all these for us :)

This is mine!! haha =D

Damn SWEET!

We shared this Anna Sui Perfume for gine, hope i got what you really like ya.

Lucky we shop together and i somehow know her taste :)

I love the feathers and Rosey too!

"Gine! We LOVE you!"
Wahahahaha
=D

My best kaki in office! :)

My fave office sweeties. HEE :)

Its really sad that Gine had left :(

My bestie in office. haha.

I've bought a Kate Mascara from KANEBO for her! Glad that you like it la, it was just another small gift from me.

As what i wrote in the letter for ya, i will MISS doing so many things in office with you!

Our so lame jokes that never fail to make us laugh until tummy pain. and and!! Our endless talks about whatever loves and hates. Those times that we were outside our office and cried our hearrrt out. I will definity miss all these babe!

WE GONNA MEET UP REAL SOON! =D

LOVES

Brand New BEAT!

2009-01-01T16:58:00.005+08:00

Its the YEAR 2009!!!

Happie HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Had any awesome party yesterday to welcome a brand new year? :)

I did i did!!

Everything started as usual yesterday cos still gonna report to work.

The happy thing is that we get to knock off earlier! Left my work place at about 3pm :)

My company is kind enough to order some catering for us as lunch. I only know that my company is super budget thats all. The food were so pathetic!

Whatever it is, there is one that i really wanna shout out here....

GINE! I will miss you loads alright!!!

Not only is that the last day of year 2008, it was Gine's last day in my co too :(

You know how much i will miss you rite! Hope you can get a really good job soon :)

Can't wait to see you again!!

Many of my colleagues and me shared some gifts for her!! yea!

(will upload all the photos real soon huh)

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The PARTY-ing?

Met up with my darling Xueling for dinner at town and we shop for a while before heading to meet the rest! :)

Clarke Quay was just so conjested with people! Seriously just people ok, everywhere so crowded. No doubt that loads of places were liked this too yesterday. haha.

Clubbing at REBEL!

We did our countdown celebrations there and the club is expectedly no space to move! But it was all so FUN!

Simply just hanging out and cheering off 2008 and welcoming something new with some frens, really LOVE all these fun-nest! Yup yup, i will updates the photos for this too soon soon kk :)

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~Whats up in 2009~

I really don't know what kind of feelings to welcome this year.

Should i be happy and so looking forward to what coming in my life this year??

I THINK I SHOULD!

I gonna be very very optimistic and also bringing out all my courage to face everything new this year.

Of cos, hoping for the good things :)

2008 was such... a badly year for me. It was such horror i had been through.

Many had said that my life is too DRAMATIC and being such an age now to go through something like all these isn't easy. Ahah you bet! How much tears i had shed for the entire year. (seas of water?? lol)

Yea i'm really not kidding. For those that are really close to me will know.

Hope i can throw all these unfortunate thingy away and lead my life to the fullest now!

i SERIOUSLY need to be like this.

I remembered Vera telling me this, she said that maybe what i am having now (the badly hardship) and that i will eventually gain back a much better life in the future :) I really wish for that too.

Thanks for those that were always being there when i was so lost and helpless.

I LOVE MY BABY AND XUELING LOVE!

Although many know about my family prob, but practically they are my two dearest that know exactly whats happening and that i will always consult with.

They are so always there to listen to me, whatever shit i complained and cried with.

Glad that i still have someone that really really love me thats of cos is my baby love and... also a bunch of trueful frens i have.

Think that i had mentioned all my dearest?

AHAH!

no No NO, not yet done!

One more person!!

How can i miss out this hot babe here??

THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON NOW IN MY LIFE

>>>

MY GRANNY!!

AH MA AH MA AHMA!

LOL.

LOVE HER DEEP DEEP.

weeeeee!!

Hope she will be as healthy always and stay strong strong pls!!

Don't always be so stubborn.lol.

*MUACKZ MILLIONS*

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Wish that everybody will have a better year ahead ayea!

PS: My baby is working today too, my lovelove so hardworking, gonna see him tmr and sayang him* hee.

Best Of Asia!

2008-12-28T19:29:00.003+08:00

Boa - Eat You Up (Full American Version!)

　BoAの全米デビュー曲『Eat you Up』は11日、アメリカの大手ポータルサイト「AOL」（www.music.aol.com）の「今日のミュージックビデオ」に選ばれた。　

「今日のミュージックビデオ」は、AOLがアメリカで話題になっているアーティストのMVを毎日1本ずつ選び紹介するもので、この日は『Eat you Up』がAOLビデオ・セクションのメーンを飾った。

　AOLは『Eat you Up』について「イケてるダンスが見られるこのMVは、アメリカ進出のために作られた」と紹介した。　

特に、このMVはネットユーザーの間でも熱い反響を呼んでおり、BoAのアメリカ進出に期待が高まっている。　アメリカのネットユーザーたちは「BoAの歌とダンスはファンタスティック。これから本格的に米国で活動するのを楽しみにしている」と書き込むなど、アメリカでも関心が高く、好感を持たれているようだ。

　BoAは6日、ロサンゼルス近郊のホンダ・センター・アナハイムで行われた「KIIS‐FM Jingle Ball」コンサートでオープニング・ステージを飾った。

すごーい！確かにこのMVダンスがチョーイケてるよねｗｗ

My all time fave!
She is damn talented.
BOA ROCKS!!!
=D

X'mas eve with love*

2008-12-27T14:10:00.005+08:00

Xmas eve with my baby :)

Watched the movie *Yes Man*!!

Not a bad movie cos its really quite funny. hee.

Jim Carrey is really so lame inside. haha

Jim Carrey and Zooey Deschanel!

She is really pretty! =D
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X'mas eve is always so crowded everywhere!

We only planned to watch movie and had dinner. We are so not going to be caught in the middle of Orchard Road being crash and sprayed like nobody business. lol. It happened every year like this in town.

Somehow, this year don't really feel any festive mood. Xmas just come and go in a blink! It rain the whole day too, some replacement for snow?

There wasn't much gifts exchange too, everybody is just too broke or don't really bother. haha.

Dearest and me ^-^

Poor baby got to work on Xmas, and all the way till this sunday! Hoping baby won't get too drag out by the work and pls dun fall sick again oh. We both got so bad flu on Xmas day itself! lol.

Miss him so much*

Lilian say we look like beng and lian here!!!

hahahaha. OMG.

Really? Even Gine also agree with that. lol. -_-"

I know we look funny here! hehe. =D

Fat Pig!

HAHAHA.

~Love him like nuts~

Danzation Rocks!

2008-12-21T11:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night went to Danzation 2008 at Ngee Ann Convention Centre!

The show was awesome mann! Super nice! =D

The whole show lasted for about 2hrs and some of the dance performances have a story to it and by using dance to express all the emotions and feelings.

R/S love, Family Love and Friendship!

I love the most, solo by JJ about a family love.

You can imagine how good she had express out everything when i was tearing while watching!

Damn nice can :)

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Some random photos before, during or after the Spotlight!

Patrick Loo! A very outstanding dancer and choreographer =D

Our Cheering before Beg HH item starts!
*Bad Girls*

Lilian trying very hard to do a chinese dance move! hahahaha.

I have to help out if not she better dun sprain her back! lol

Our tiring face after rehearsal! i look damn pale!

Spotlight*The Danz Pple!

2008-12-20T12:45:00.006+08:00

Our Danz party on thurs!

SPOTLIGHT

for

*Danz People*

We were all busy that day since 3 plus in the afternoon! We were all there earlier for the very last stage rehearsal :)

This is my group for Girls Hip Hop.

We dance these songs - Bottle Pop by Pussycat Dolls & Womanizer by Britney Spears :)

All preparing at the Dance's studio!

We were doing our touch up for our make up after all the sweaty rehearsals!

Super nervous yet excited. Lilian trying to act CALM enough to tell us its just party performance and not to worry!! hahaha. But still its our very 1st show so we tend to be extra worried.

Mich love met her earlier for lunch :)

Our instuctor for Girls HH! Love all her danz lessons mann! We brought Flowers for Clare~ to thank her!

Xueling & Soojing were here too!

They are so gonna join us for danz :)

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The preparation for our 2nd item Beg Hip Hop.

Chereo by Mr Mornin! =D

We danz: Bad Girls by Danity Kane.

My 2nd item group :) Our scary starry danz!

Funny! We are scary ok! not Catty! LOL. Wahahha.

Agil! Used to be our Reggae's instructor. He was one of the MC that day! Cool yo :)

*busy eating*

The forever li siao Francis always trying to be funny la. He was all the way super high and skating around disturbing pple. haha. Entertaining la.

We did a last min thank you card for both Clare and Mornin!

Knowing that Mornin's birthday is this month, we decided to give him a surprise!

Bought a pair of Shoes for him!! i really love this shoes also, too bad no size for girls! arhh!!

Anyway, this gift was also to thank him for all the guidance and patient he rendered to us! :)

Look how Happy he was!

Good Morning, Mornin! lol.

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Everything seems to gone so freaking fast!

All the many weeks rehearsals and practises,

tiring & sweats

fun & laughters.

Times that we were so headache that we might not danz as well and how are we gonna dress on that day, all these were all over!

Had so much fun and appreciate such experience =D

Totally enjoyed so much through everything, get to know better among our danz group and all the teamy work. hehe.

Cool event for Danz People!

*LOVES*

Oh my godddd!

2008-12-17T23:39:00.003+08:00

Can't Believe tmr is the day alr!!!
I am so freaking nervous + scare + going crazy while murmuring with the dance countings that is keep going on in my Mind!!! hahaha. lol!
Met up with lilian, mich, claudia for self-practice at the studio and ya sharon is there too :)
Before heading to the studio, lilian mich and me were at far east trying to do our very last min dance's outfit shopping. Actually, we had all planned what to wear la but just shop ard to add some accessories or anything cool we could find. I bought a punk leather-kind handband which is really cheap and cute and also shared a hand sock with mich! :) Everyone will be so dressed up tmr, can't wait! haha. i know its contradicting, i'm looking forward yet damn scare that i will screw up everything.
I really hope i can get all my steps right tmr!

stay cool lala :) :) :)

purely am sad

2008-12-14T22:34:00.003+08:00

Just had a bad quarrel with him. We were so fine talking on the phone initially
He told me that he won't be spending christmas (i think new year also) with me cos he gonna work :(
I'm so looking forward to spend this day with him, not cos its christmas but also cos he hardly can spend his whole day with me.
When he told me this, my first reaction was of cos SAD rite... so didn't talk much to him and my tone was really sad. I admit i'm quite pissed off but i'm not angry cos he need to work and dun wanna spend his christmas with me. I'm just couldn't react to this last min change. I'm purely just SAD.
He completely assumed that i'm not understanding. Not being able to understand that he got to work. and thats how the quarrel starts. BUT i seriously understand!!
Baby,
why your first thought is always i being not understanding? Can't i have the right to feel sad and let me angry for that few minutes? Do i always need to give in and end up apologising to you instead?
Why is it always like that, you want me to understand you, but how about me. I'm sicked of all these endless quarrels that repeat every now and then, so often already.
Do i still have the determination to continue...................................

Pop it up

2008-12-12T21:39:00.002+08:00

My sis and her hubby will be coming for the performance! yea!! but sad that gine and sallz can't make it. I'm so looking forward to next thurs but is extremely nervous as well..... -_-

Finally met up with my darling yesterday, miss him so much. Had the same quarrel again few days ago, its a problem that i don't know how are we gonna ever solve it. I'm i so good at compromising.? It had been 2yrs plus and going... who can have such determination? Anyway, we didn't mention anything about the quarrel yesterday, just wanna appreciate this little time together ourselves ^-^

Haven got anytime to get Christmas gifts yet!! Shall do it this coming weekends cos my colleagues will be having gifts exchange next week. It will be so Fun!! But seriously, i've got no idea what to get at all... and kinda broke this month! arhhh... I can never save :(

Will be still dancing through this weekends :)

Its coming!!

2008-12-03T21:48:00.005+08:00

ITS A DANCE AFFAIR

SPOTLIGHT

Student Recital & Christmas Party!

18 December 2008

Dance Affair Poster is out! For our Dance Recital on the 18th Dec! =D

How many years i haven been on stage for any performance like this??

*super nervous*

Thanks those that will be coming to support! :)

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Refresh back... i was in chinese dance in primary sch! omg.

Those practices and performances are really fun too :)

We happened to find out that we are all from Chinese Dance in primary sch too!! Thats so coincidence can... end up we still dance together now! :)

These were taken while we were slacking around and chatting in between our own dance practices on sunday! haha :)

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More pictures from Jolene's Big Day!

oops... where are they?? lol!

I like this pict! Nice backview of the gown :)

The prettiest time of a girl is on her own wedding day itself!

Jolene looks so gorgeous that night. Preetty!!

Lilian love.

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I have been so tired recently, even weekends. No time for myself, have been going for dance! but its ok at least doing something i enjoy :) hehe.

Can't wait to meet my sweetheart tomorrow!

He've got Christmas gift for me already.

I know its early but just so happy that he bought that for me!

Yea!!!

*LOVES*

I think i need plenty of sleep now!

Nights sweets :)

Moving on...

2008-11-29T19:59:00.005+08:00

I know my blog is getting bore!!!

I've been so busy.

Just moved to stay at my cousin's hse last Sat.

Having such a hard time packing my things that is still stacking up like a mountain in my cousin's hse now. Even though i won't have my own room anymore... but! at least i get to moved away from that heartless daughter of my ah ma. I hope everything shall gets better from now onwards. I don't pity nor feel anything anymore towards her, she deserve all these. Till now, she still don't wanna change and is still making a Fool out of herself. Serve her right.

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Having to stay at a relative's hse, meaning i need to be extra independent than usual.

As you know, when one's staying not his/her own hse, got to go with their hse rules when staying there, but nonetheless everything still getting on quite well :)

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Monday's danzation!

Enjoy all the dance classes :)

We dance like mad that day, dance till we don't wanna stop? lol. We were having so much fun though super tiring! the performance is coming in just another 2 weeks only! omg. still need plenty plenty of practise la dance like shit. hee... having rehearsal tmr at 9.30 am!! Tmr shall dance dance dance!!!~

The coolest clicks in dance! =D

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Last sunday, 23 Nov was Jolene's big BIG day!!!!

Congrats girl! You look damn gorgeous that day :) LOVES.

Jolene, one of my dance mate. She reserved a table just for us, her dancing kakis!

We were Suberb high that day, the most noisy wedding guests ever! hahahaha. We were screaming and cheering there like mad, laughing like nobody business, as if watching some Concert??? HEE. =D

Anyway, just hope that we weren't too loud till not having any respect for this wedding. We are not alright! Just feel too happy for Jolene and her hubby. LOL.

May this sweetest couple stay super duper lovey!

LoveLove :)

We look great!! :)

First time see all my dance frens all so dressed up for some event!

Pls dun wonder why are we trying to act as if we have Paws! HAHA. just some details move in our dance. =D

Lilian!! i love this pict!! :)

Actually have more picts, shall update again la.

thats all. tata.