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Whats the date today?
Its the Sixth of another month, and its a day of every month that we used to remember...
It was special to us.
Yes, it was.

过去怎么安排, 你该给的信赖
我的眼泪却一直掉下来...

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i wanna die
i wanna bleed
i wanna cry
but all i can do is just keep walking with a smile on my face
and pretend the scars aren't really there

I cry because I know he doesn't feel the way I do.
I cry because I think of how pathetic I am,
and I cry because I think I'll be crying forever........

If this is goodbye, don't come back
if this is the end, don't wake me up.
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.

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You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

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your reply is in a mess
at this moment in time,
i thought of the past,
the sweetness is scattered.

a mysterious tugging of my emotions
i'm still loving you.
but you continued singing pretending that nothing has happened.
time has passed and left,
love is faced with a choice.
you've become cold and i've cried
the unhappiness we felt when I left,
you just don't break a word
it was all silence.

Sometimes love can only be like this and it's really painful.
what happened,
you're tired, where is the happiness that we agreed on?
i understand and dun wanna say anymore,
love has weakened, our dreams have drifted.

Being happy or not, narrating them one after another, we cant bear it.
Those feelings of loving were way too deep, i can still remember them.
You're not waiting anymore, wheres the happiness that we agreed on?
I was wrong, tears have dried, we've let go, we've regretted.
Only that musical box of memories still continue to turn,



how can it be stopped?

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what am i hoping for?
I thought i was ok so i laugh happily,
at the end of the day...
i'm not.

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Every little thing i do, i saw or i thought of... somehow it could relates to you.
I don't know why.
I'm afraid to listen... to songs that relates to you or us.
Its heartbreaking.
I'm afraid to think back... our past memories are just too much to be erased.
Its sweet yet bitter.
The many hopes you had given, they are all broken, too many pieces to be fix back again.
These are tons of disappointment.
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i'm really afraid, really afraid... this is tearing me apart................

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My dear sis just advice me this: If that someone can't bring you happiness but tons of sorrow, no use hanging on to it. It will only drag your pain... isn't it kind of true?
How much courage i need to have to let go of this... i always just hold on to it, thought that somehow someday it will change to be better. I am wrong. The more i'm holding on to it, my heartache just got even deeper...
I should learn to let go now.
If one day you still holds the status of being my bf, i will still expect at least a little from you, but that little thing that i had expected seems to be too stress or too much for you. When there is no expectations, there will be no disappointment. If that small request i've asked makes you feels being controlled, you are not ready to have me in yr life.
This hurts deeply do you know that?