brain dead

have you ever try to be in my shoes and understand how i feel? you always think that i'm not understanding enough. what kind of understanding do you really want. have i not done enough. from the beginning till now i'm always compromising with your time. i'm always making an effort to meet up cos i know you need me and wanna share with me all yr ns stuffs. Am i asking too much? just a little time of yours. a few hours will do and that can make me really looking forward to. you can took leave for yr fren but why not me? you rather buy me something to please me. i rather you spend that same amount of money to buy up an off day for me. i dun want anything i just need yr time. i rather choose you than a thing. you repeated sorry sorry and sorry for so many time. what can that word "sorry" do anything good to me. and just telling me very soon, ya really very soon that you can give me some part of your busy time. You have been giving me empty promises again and again. if you can't do it dun give me false hope that i always look forward to and end up being alone again. i don't want a r/s that i'm always left alone. You told me that we are together long enough. Is it that long enough doesn't see the impt of meeting up?

you hold on to every single thing that you want, do you have time for all?
something need to be given up.
Now the most impt thing for you is to work hard and than study. i dun wanna be the one that might be stopping you from doing them.