Uuuuupdates!!!

oh gosh, i have not been updating my blog!
Life has been soSOso busy for me!
Mr STRESS never fails to visit me everynow and then. LOL.
Anyway, thanks all for the concern and love love! i hope i can still hang on there and be super strong girl!
Cos i know my grandma needs me loads :)

ok, just let me update for the week.
I took leave on Mon and Tues. Supposingly, my grandma's op was scheduled on Mon but cos of some emergency cases that the doctor got to attend to them first, instead of my grandma! My grandma and i waited enxiously for the whole day and only to find out it had to be postpone to Tues. We were being informed only in the evening! The feelings of such "Worried" waiting isn't fun at all. Who can we blame? Doctor got to attend to some A&E cases, there is nothing we can say.
On the actual day, my grandma was brought to the operating theatre in the morning at 10plus. Everything was only done in the evening! My grandma was finally being send back to the ward ard 6plus. This many hours of waiting really almost killed me. I had only a piece of bread for the whole day. I don't have any appetite at all, all i know is that i want my grandma to be out sound and safe. This really tortures me physically and mentally. Although the Op was a success, my grandma is still going through observations... really hope all these can be over real soon! Oh, forgot to mention that my grandma was suffering with big intestine cancer :(

This is the main thing that i've been worrying about, my grandma's recovery and all. There are many times that i broke down and feels soSoso lost when my mum of mine never fails to create havoc. Those who are close with me should know what kind of family problem i have. If i gonna write all these down, it gonna be endless :(
Stress have taken over my whole mind and i can't think well, eat well and sleep well. This is really tiring, very very tiring. I can cry everyday and the worse part, having nightmares.
I miss the house that i used to live in. Family love, cosy and warm.