efforts all gone

Baby,
I really don't understand why you are willing to sacrifice my time with you and meet your friend. Meeting those friends that you almost meet them every week. For this, you always unable to give me an answer. I tried to understand. All i can get is being neglected... and i'm always the one waiting for you to tell me when i can see you.
You will just wonder, what makes me think that you are meeting them every week.
You often see them, you either wait till you are not working, not meeting any friend than you will thought of spending time with me.
You will just say no, i never.
Than why?
You will just say that it have been some time since you last meet them, so you choose them.
But, for the past 1 month you have meeting them and this week you choose them than me. Why? Its not the first time already.
All you say again is, i never ok i never.
You did, cos you don't know how to explain. I never ever ask you to take leave for me. I understand that work is more important. When it comes to friends, you are always first to be there or being there to help. If it was me, you will think that its ok, you will still have plenty of time in future with me. (so you will rather not appreciate the time now with me?) Than i'm left waiting for you.
You will say that you have not been meeting your friend. You don't have the time, so if you meet me you don't have time for friend. If you meet your friend, you don't have time for me.
For this, you ask me how again.
So i tell you, you will rather "meet your friend and not have time for me". It always like that.
I know the answer already. I will get use to it. I will try... Till one day i'm really tired, i don't know what will happen.
You told me this was the first time, you never before.
You have got so bad memories, if it was the first time i won't be so frastrated.
Than, you ask me how again.
Since you don't wanna change, just pray hard that i won't get tired of all these. I'm sure we will quarrel over this problem again.
You ask me this: Than what do you want me to change to, tell me la.
Ok, you still don't know what the problem and so that is why you are asking me to teach you how to change? Can't you just think?
You say this again: I still have to meet my friend one right?
I never stop you to not meeting them and demand you to meet me. You must know when is the appropriate time to meeting who.
You will just tell me that since when do have that kind of time.
Thats the problem. You are able to make time for your friend when they need you. But if its for me, you got to decide and think for so long. Are you being fair to me?
You said: I can make that for you than my friend?
The main thing, most of the time you are able to do it for them.
Its ok, after what you had said, i realized i'm not as impt. All the worries you had was your friends. As if i had demanded you not to meet them.
You said this: I never said that ok. Its just that i really don't know what to do. I must have friend also what, if i can meet you but what can i do when my friend want to meet me too?
Ya i know, and you will always choose them. I don't see why do you need me anymore.
You said: Its just once in a while what.
It had been like this for a year. I did change to understand you. But you? I don't know...
I can't even get to have a dinner with you this two weeks. I hardly ever see you.
You just make me feels that i'm just and extra person that you have to see from time to time.

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You don't ever seems to understand. Why? Wheres that effort that you used to put in our r/s.?